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November 30 Random: 30/11/08i dun kno how to start writing.
So many feelings bottled up.
Tis morning tat sickening fellow shouted at me again.
Curse him la.
Then my mum sided him.
If u keep saying tat u r not bias.
Then why u keep siding him??
Even though it is his fault.
Mum told me to think abt him.
Coz he in army very tired and tough.
WTH, very tired??
Very tired can early in the morning plug earpiece and walk ard at home??
Hey, i m the one who is sick wor.
Sickness haven recover.
Then last night whole night stomachache.
And i still hav to help tat fellow do his stuffs.
Tired coz of army??
Tis is nt tat 1st time le.
He has been like tat for years, treating me like his punching bag.
U still use army as an excuse to cover up for him.
Why cant u juz turn ard and take a look at me???
U did not see my sufferings.
Or mayb u din even care.
All u care abt is ur son.
i m so sad tat i went out of the hse crying.
i told her ma.
If u want to side ur son so much and hurt me.
Then nxt time dun come and tok to me.
i aso dun want to tok to her.
Dad drive her to work.
Then drive me to my guardian hse.
i told Dad tat she oli care abt her son.
Wat happens to me she dun care.
Even if i die, she wont even care.
Her son is wat tat matters.
Mayb u all will feel tat she treat me very gd.
Coz i no nd to do hsework.
Think again.
i no nd to iron clothes, coz she scare later i use it to scald tat fellow.
i no nd boil water, coz she scare later i pour boiling water on tat fellow.
i no nd to wash utensils, coz she scare i chop up tat fellow wif the knife.
No one will know how lack of family love i feel.
If u dun like me, dun love me, then why bring me to tis world??
Or u oli see me as an extra maid, slave??
To tend to ur son's needs.
Many ppl hav their own problems.
Mayb it b family, frenz, relationships etc.
U can choose ur frenz and relationships.
Bt u cant choose ur family.
Family is destined.
i m destined to face a mum who dun love me.
Wat can i do abt it??
No i cant, tis is my fate.
When i reach my guardian hse.
i m still crying.
i sit there in the living rm cried for more than an hr.
i feel so bitter, so sad, so pissed.
Then i tried to play game or watch tv to divert my attention.
As long as i m doing something.
i wont feel the sadness inside me.
My guardian cook potato soup for me.
Coz few days ago i hav been telling her how i miss my mum potato soup.
Bt no matter wat i say, mum wont cook.
Her reason is bro not home for dinner.
See, her soup oli cook for her son.
Then i notice my guardian use pork to cook the soup.
i feel weird and ask her.
Coz she normally use chicken to cook soup de.
Then she say tat i told her tat my mum de potato soup is cook using pork.
So she see me so sad today.
Then she cook for me.
Why???
Why is tat always is my guardian who understands, and nt my own mum???
Evening my dad come to fetch me, then go fetch my mum.
Then they go eat dinner while i sit there to wait.
Nothing to do, so i sit there to stone.
Bt my tears juz keep falling at the hawker centre.
i cant control them.
Here i m writing and recalling all these tat makes me cried yet again.
Imagine how many tears i collected today??
The extent cant even compare to the sufferings i felt my whole life.
My eyes hurts fr all those crying.
i realli nd to continue to do things to stop myself from thinking and crying. November 28 Random: 27/11/08My guardian aso sick.
She got fever for 2-3 days le.
The 1st day she got fever din told me.
It is in the evening, aft dinner.
The nxt day then i kno.
Then i insist her to b a good girl.
Nxt time not feeling well muz report to me.
My nephew then keep laughing at my guardian.
Saying how come i call her "good girl".
Then i say oli i can call her like tat.
Aft tat let her eat panadol to at least bring down the temp.
And measure temp every few hrs.
Bt aft the effects of the medicine.
The fever is still there.
Tis morning i sms her.
Ask her if she is feeling better.
Told her if not feeling well dun cook.
i can go buy lunch and dinner for them.
Bt she call me back and say the fever still there.
She say she going to see doc.
i told her to wait for me.
i will pei her there.
Bt she say no nd.
My guardian is like tat de.
Dun like to trouble ppl.
Bt i insist my nephew to pei her go.
Coz scare later she alone dizzy how.
At least got ppl beside her.
Can call me if anything happen.
Doc say fever for old ppl is not gd.
Can lead to lung infection.
Plus due to not feeling well.
She cant eat or slp.
Aft lunch, i get her to rest in bed.
And went to put a wet towel on her forehead.
Despite her saying dun want, i insisted.
Coz tat is how my mum used to let me lower my temp.
i m oli under flu, sorethroat, cough.
i m young and alr feeling not so well le.
Sometimes will hav dizzy spells.
Imagine someone her age.
She will feel much more weaker than i do.
Please let her recover faster and stay healthy.
It pains me to see her being sick. November 26 Macross FrontierMacross Frontier
 Tis is the 1st time i tried from the Macross series de.
Although i start on tis quite some time ago.
Bt no time to finish watching.
And during the anime screening.
i manage to watch one of the macross movie.
Macross series r abt mobile suits war.
Somehow i find it is the same genre as Gundam.
Bt i will prefer the fighting in Gundam.
i find tis Macross Frontier quite not bad.
Love some of the songs.
Realli very nice.
Bt too bad i din cry, although got ppl die la.
Juz feel sad oli.
Haha, unless is my fav char(the long hair guy in pic) die.
Then i will cry like mad.
i heard from my frenz tat Macross will always hav love triangle de.
Bt i watch the movie.
The love problem got solve.
At least got choose 1 of them.
Bt it is different in tis Frontier.
Coz til the end.
The love triangle is not solve.
2 girls 1 guy.
Who will the guy choose??
Most imptly.
At the end.
The 2 girls still remain as very gd frenz.
Saying tat they will try their best in love.
Dun want la, i want him to choose 1.
If not like dun hav a proper ending lor. Random: 26/11/08Haiz, dun kno how come suddenly get sick.
Ever since aft exams.
i din slp late.
Make sure i m in bed at 12am.
And aso get at least 8 hrs of slp.
Drunk lots of water.
Even start on my brisk walk for 40mins.
Bt all these still kanna sick.
Flu getting worse.
Til my eyes sting.
Aftnoon drunk flu tea le.
Hope tonight eat panadol can recover soon.
Plz dun get blocked nose.
If not i no need to slp liao.
Even though sick.
Bt i cant let it bring me down.
i muz b determine to continue chionging.
I dun want to waste my hols slping in bed. 黑糖群侠传黑糖群侠传
 It is kinda short, oli 13epi. Like the concept. Coz is my fav 武侠 plot. Starting few epis r catchy and funny. In the middle abit draggy. Due to the romance part. Bt the ending very sudden wor. They shd depict more abt fighting the last boss. Bt most imptly. i dun like the romance pairing. 王子 and his 小师妹（丫头）r a couple de. Bt ended up both of them fall in love wif other ppl later on. SAD!!! November 24 Random: 24/11/08认识得越深，就更加容易看到摩擦。
可能你没有那个意思
但是你说的话让我很不是滋味
虽然有好几次我假笑来掩饰我的不悦
自我催眠地说你没有恶意的
只是偶然的
但是好几次下来
同样的事情还是发生了
可能这个对别人来说没什么
可是刚好正中了我的地雷吧
我不喜欢这样
就像是我说的看法
不管是认真的或是没经过大脑的
都被你用我不喜欢的方式来接话
话可能从你的口中出来是没有任何讽刺
但是在我的耳朵听来
是讽刺的话语
像是不爽我的看法
若是你那么不喜欢我的看法
那我也只好闭嘴
什么也不说
你不必听到你不赞同的我的看法
我也不会听到我不喜欢听的话了
或是下次我应该直接告诉你
我不喜欢这样被质问
因为这样会伤了我的心
我总觉得你像个刺猬
建起围墙来保护自己
但是你不知道的是
你已伤害了在你身边的我
毕竟我是一个容易伤心难过的人
可能是我太敏感
胡思乱想
你并没有要讽刺我
我也不知道我是生气、难过、疑惑......
心情也很乱
但是有一点我可以确定
我真的不喜欢这样的口吻
而且你伤害了我 November 23 Random: 23/11/08 Waaaa, Swensens de ice cream cake.
i very long nv eat ice cream cake le.
Somemore is my fav strawberry de.
Ty sis for the treat.
It is very nice. ^_^
Haha, i realli nd to lose some weght.
Today went to my guardian hse.
Then she say my face look abit more rounder.
Oh man, i gain some weight lor, 2kg.
Shit, hols le, nd to lose some weight liao. Code Geass R2Code Geass R2
 Last night finally chiong finish it.
Tis is the 2nd series.
Series 1 is gd, bt 2 is great.
It is my 1st complete show aft exams.
Ended up for me to cried lor.
Coz b4 exams i watch til halfway le.
Then i heard from my frenz who has finish it say tat it is awesome.
And now i finished it.
i totally agree.
It is super great.
Then twist in the show is totally unpredictable ma.
The concept and story is great.
Characters development is wonderful.
i like everything abt the anime, except 1.
Why does Lelouch(aka Lulu) hav to die???!!!
He is the main lead in the show, the one in the middle of the pic wearing a cape.
Bt most importantly, he is my fav char la. T_T
He sacrifice himself to create a better world for his sis, frenz and everyone in the world.
He allow himself to become the most hated person in the world.
Then get his best frenz to kill him.
In order to eliminate all the hatred in the world wif his death.
Arhhhhhh, i dun want him to die la. November 22 Anime Festival Asia 08Anime Festival Asia @ Suntec Convention Hall on 22nd and 23rd Nov.
Tis is the 1st time Asia has held tis event.
i m supposed to meet my frenz at abt 9am at Suntec.
Bt due to the fact tat i din pre register.
So no nd to go so early.
Coz oli the pre register can go in early.
The rest can oli enter aft 10am.
Thus i din join them.
So i slacked at home til abt 11.30am then set off for lunch.
Reach there abt 12.30pm.
As Shufen told me tat she is Q-ing up for the tixs.
And the Q is super duper long.
Scare later run out of tixs.
So i get her to help me get the tixs while i m on the way.
When i reach, she was in the middle of a Q.
So cant ask her to meet me outside.
So i went to the book fair to redeem by rebates.
i wanna use the tokens to buy a shounen manga de latest volume.
Bt ended up there the titles limited and dun hav the latest one.
Oh man, i so scare nothing for me to buy lor.
Then i look thru all the manga on display.
To my ulitmate happiness.
i found a shoujo manga tat i hav been looking for ages.
Coz i check out lots of bookshops, popular, manga shops.
All out of printing, so dun hav.
And amazingly i found 3 copies of it there.
Waaaaa, super heng de la.
Like tat then i gt my whole full set le. Yippi =)
i din loiter ard the book fair for long to see JJ Lin and Rui En.
And the crowd at the bookfair is not as bad as previous yrs.
i think the Anime Festival Asia event has attracted most of the ppl lor.
Shufen is still in the Q.
So i ask Amos for help me get the tix from her.
And we walk ard separately.
Coz things we see r different and ppl too many le.
Go in a grp hard to walk.
Today my focus is more on shopping ard and seeing items.
i din manage to get any cosplayers pics.
Coz lots of figurines tat i din see b4 in other similar events.
And i manage to see the big figurine of Cloud.
i had been walking ard for abt an hr.
Bt i din see anything worth buying. Sad lor.
Then i notice a stall tat sell their self drawn actwork.
The guys they drawn very handsome wor.
Bt since i dun kno some of the characters and buy big ones wasted ne.
So i ended up buying the 3 smaller postcards.
 At 1st i choose 2 pieces de, the top one and the bottom left de.
Top one is Zack, Cloud's frenz.
Coz today i juz started playing Final Fantasy Crisis Core.
And Zack is the main lead.
And i find him very handsome.
So tot of buying his pic.
The bottom left de i juz find him sexy la.
Bt coz they selling 3 @$4 ma.
So hav to choose another one.
Thus the final one is the most handsome among those tat r left le.
Those tat i like de, postcards size no more liao, oli left big protraits.
Not worth buying since they r not my fav chars.
Small ones will do.
Rem the Q tat Shufen is Q-ing up.
It is the KknM stall.
The anime shop tat situated at Sunshine Plaza.
The Q is super long la.
Coz the booth is very small.
So everyone has to Q in order to get into the booth to look at the items. i aga aga finish looking ard.
So went to Q up lor.
i Q for abt 1 hr, then get finally look at the items.
Suoer tired de, hav to stand there, wif my heavy bag.
So during the Q-ing.
i told myself.
If i come out without buying anything.
Then it is realli 对不起自己.
So die die muz buy something.
If not my 1 hr and energy is wasted lor.
So finally my turn le.
HOHOHO.
i look ard and focus on those tat i like.
i decide quite fast wor.
Bt nothing much left le, bt i still manage to buy 3 items.
1st one is the Earl and Fairy de poster @$12.
And it is the final copy, and aso the display copy.
Bt i juz cant ignore them, they look so hot right.
Especially the one in the middle wif yellow hair.
Bt the other 2 beside him aso quite cool. ^_^
 2nd is the Kuroshitsuji file @$7.90.
Tis is now one of my fav latest anime.
Kno y???
Haha, coz my fav character, the guy on the left.
Is always wearing suit wif tie.
Although he is not human, bt he is gd in everything.
From cooking, knowledge all the way to fighting.
 3rd is the Kuroshitsuji postcard @ $4.50.
 Then at another stall.
i manage to find 2 of my fav Bleach chars tog de mousepad @5.
Somemore tis mousepad is transparent de.
 Waaaa, ended up today i spent so much money lor.
Not to mention the $5 entrance fee.
Hmmm, nd to calculate...i spent a total of $42.90.
Haven count in the food lor.
Bt think got some items r sold out b4 i went to the stall.
If not i will surely spent more than tis amt de.
Although the event is 2 days, today and tml.
Got concerts on both night.
My frenz all attending both days.
Bt i wont b going tml le.
Coz everything i look and buy le.
Plus i left early, abt 5pm like tat.
Bt i m super tired.
Having backache and shoulderache from all those standing.
Super tiring de.
Bt still happy wif my 战利品. November 21 精神粮食Exam is such a torture.
Feels like dying from all those studying.
Bt ty to my 精神粮食 from Xihui.
Tada~~~proudly presents my 精神粮食.
 Waaa, tis is the latest Seiko Ad tat Daniel did.
Still as handsome and charming.
 Tis is the previous Loreal ad tat he did.
Although i alr hav tis pic from Amy and Sis.
Bt more the merrier.
i still love them very much.
Ty a lot Xihui.
The 精神粮食 very effective.
Jiayou for ur papers.
All the best. Random: 21/11/08Yeh!!! Finally exams r over.
Tis sem de exams r realli fast.
Coz super packed tog.
Although i kno tat i din do well for them.
Bt for now i shd juz reward myself and enjoy.
Lots of things i wanna do.
Watch idol dramas, manga, anime, games, outings.
Waaa, so many things to do bt hols is so short.
Gonna make full use of all the time i can get. November 20 Random: 20/11/08Yesterday i was complaining abt dropping my mp3.
Wahahaha, on the same day itself.
In Chinese lib mugging.
My mp3 flew off the table and onto the floor.
Aiyo, super clumsy me lor.
i accidentally tug on the wire when i try to get something from my bag.
Thus it flew off...
i tried to grab the wire of the ear piece.
Juz when i tot tat i saved it.
Bt ended up the plug got detached from the mp3.
And it fell to the floor.
My right leg ankle is swollen.
It has alr been more than 3 days le lor.
It started off wif a 10 cent coin size red mark.
It is very itchy and i tot it is mosquito bite lor.
Bt then the mark gets bigger and bigger each day.
Until it is like 2 $1 coin de size lor.
And the pain and itchyness also increases.
Last night is worst.
My whole ankle is red and swollen.
Itchy and pain when i try to walk. Today is much better le.
The red mark aso become slighly lighter.
Tis morning i did something which i dun recall it happen to me b4.
i m supposed to reach sch at 10am to mug.
i woke up at abt 8am.
Bt i m too tired and i try to go back to 赖床.
Bt normally i 赖床, i will still keep track of the time de.
Bt the nxt moment i woke up.
i saw the clock.
To my horror, it is 10.30am!!!
Arhhhhh, i m so late lor.
How come i overslp???
It is very not like me lor.
Think i m too tired le.
i dun kno wat is wrong wif me.
M i alr in the hols mood tat makes me quite awake??
Coz b4 tues, preparing for my killer 3 mods.
i m always very tired during mugging.
Thus cant focus.
And tends to float off and slack.
Bt aft tat killer.
i m very awake during mugging lor.
Like yesterday and today.
i m totally into the mugging mood.
Super not like me too.
Bt last night i slack thru out man.
Watch lots of youtube vids on my laogong yuanchang.
Now so ganjiong.
Coz tml finally marks the end of my last paper.
Bt i still got half pile of lect notes haven finish.
1 inch thick de reading notes.
And 3 movies to watch.
Arhhhhh. how to finish like tat???
Hav to chiong as much as i can le lor. November 19 Random: 19/11/08Yesterday night i m supposed to b very tired.
Aft 3 straight exams paper.
Bt when i tried to go to bed at abt 12.30am.
i realised i cant slp wor.
Dun understand how come i m so awake.
Hav to try to force myself to slp.
Hand weak from writing too much these few days.
This morning was writing some notes for my nxt exams.
My hand so numb lor.
Until the handwriting nt nice.
And i cant even hold my mp3 properly.
It fall from a great height.
OMG, hope tat tis incident wont shorten its lifespan.
i m getting clumsy, 1st is my phone, now is my mp3. Haiz. November 18 Random: 18/11/08Exams marathron.
Yesterday 1 paper.
Today 2 papers.
WOOO, it is realli stressed to packed everything tog.
For yesterday, HC252.
i din slp again the previous night.
Bt i m actually quite relax on the day itself.
Coz i dun kno wat to study for it.
No study range, no qns style, how to prepare like tat??
Anyway, i juz manage to finish reading the lect and tut notes.
Then it is still chui.
6 short qns and 2 long qns behind.
i spent too much time doing and thinking for the 6 short qns.
Then oli left wif half an hr to do 2 20m each de long qns??
Where got time la!!!!
i oli did a bit on both qns.
This time die le.
2 long qns oli did a little.
In front short qns can do.
This time realli so dead.
Poor time management.
Then aft my paper yesterday aftnoon.
i went to study for today morning de paper, HC303.
It is my weakest mod.
And i still got alot haven study and dun understand yet.
Last night Xiaojun and Xihui say my whole face got a word: STRESSED.
i very ganjiong abt it lor.
Plus i haven start on my evening paper, TCM.
Last night manage to slp abit.
Think i m too tired le.
Bt i ended up dreaming abt a siuation where i sit for my TCM paper.
And i cant do more than half of the qns, and doing very slowly.
Shit, wat a bad dream.
Tis morning, i woke up ay 7am.
Continue mugging.
While my mum is out to buy breakfast for me.
Amazingly i finish eating wor.
Normally i cant eat especially when i m stressed la.
Then daddy drove me to sch.
The most weird thing is tat on our way to our exam hall.
At the corridor there, right in the middle, got a pile of shit.
WOOOO, who ended up shitting right in the middle of the rd???
B4 exam, the shit was still intact.
Bt aft exam, when we walk past there.
It is alr destroyed.
Coz think many ppl stepped on it lor.
OMG, poor guys who stepped on it man.
Aft tat, when to chiong to mug for TCM.
Abt 4 hrs left to rem all i can.
Brain dead la.
Trying to put as much as i can.
Although previous batch on tis paper say tat it is easy.
Very easy get A de.
Bt to me is hard lor.
i got alot of qns cant do.
Shit, i m one of the few who sit thru out the whole exam.
Coz many ppl finish fast and left in the middle of it. Haiz, i will aim for B+ la.
A is like impossible lor.
Finally can get a short break now.
Wanna get a nice slp.
1 more paper to go. November 15 M i too naive??i m a quite a straightforward person.
So my emotions will b shown directly.
If there is any misunderstanding.
I will like to clear it straight too.
And not to left it hanging. Coz there is no perfect ppl.
Ppl will tend to make mistakes tat lead to misunderstanding.
So once it is clear up.
M i being too naive??
Hope not.
Okies, gonna go chiong my mugging le.
3 papers on monday and tues.
Shit, dun kno how i m going to finish reading.
Lagging behind by a great deal.
No time le la. Random: 15/11/08i kno i m being petty.
i shd not b bother by such little things.
Bt i juz cant help it.
i cant control my emotions.
When i see my stuffs' condition is in a mess.
i m totally irritated.
i kno i shd not feel tat way.
Bt it erupted a bomb in my minefield.
As it is a very major issue for me.
So plz, if u borrow things from me.
Tried ur very best to keep it safely.
i kno if want it to remain 100% in the same condition as i pass to u.
It is impossible and very 无理取闹.
Bt at the very least, dun let it come back wif stain, torn and dirty leh.
Like it has juz undergo some war or something leh.
See le i very irritated and heartache de lor.
Totally no mood to do other things le.
It is like a knot in my heart.
Very uncomfortable.
Everytime i see it.
Always got the urge to throw it away.
And get a new one lor.
i kno i should nt hav this bad habit.
Bt i juz cant control it.
It may b a small issue to alot of ppl.
Bt it is a big problem for me.
Although i dun want to feel tis way.
Bt i juz cant change how i feel abt it. November 14 Random: 14/11/08Dun kno if it is like a sort of 补偿.
Cant last night i m super sad abt the jap failure issue.
Bt ended up at night getting quite a not bad dream.
Although it is nothing very sweet or romantic like the previous dreams.
Bt at the very least, i can see Yalun ma.
Although if it is my laogongs will b better.
Bt nvm, i aso quite like Yalun. =)
Dreaming......
As usual, we r studying at chinese lib.
Haha, realli 日有所思，也有所梦.
Coz tis whole sem we r studying at chinese lib lor.
Anyway, Xiaojun and i juz reach the lib liao.
There r other chinese fac de ppl sitting in our area too.
Then i got a msg from Yinghao.
Saying tat he is not coming le.
Bt Pengfei and Yalun r joining us.
Haha, at the back of my mind i was thinking.
How come Yinghao knows Pengfei?
Coz Pengfei is my sec sch de frenz.
Anyway, i naturally accept the fact tat Yalun is coming.
Coz in my dream, Yalun is my very gd frenz for many yrs le.
Aft a while.
Someone tapped me on my shoulder.
It is Yalun, and Pengfei is wif him.
So i ask them to sit down in front of me and Xiaojun.
And introduce both of them to Xiaojun.
Bt since it is Yalun.
Coz handsome ma.
There seems to b some commotion going on wif the girls sitting in our area.
They r busy 指指点点 here, and saying tat he is very gd looking etc.
Heng arh, seems like they haven notice tat he is the idol Yalun yet.
Juz sees him as a normal uni de handsome student.
We started toking and playing.
Bad Yalun, always like to suan me.
Me: Yalun!!! How dare u...
Oh man, i m call his name too loud le.
The girls ard me heard me calling his name.
Then they started looking at us liao.
Discussing tat he realli look like the idol Yalun.
Then Yalun giv me those 怎么办 de face.
Coz he dun want ppl to recognise him.
Then one of the girls whom i kno ask me.
Girl: Ur frenz aso call "Yalun" arh?? He aso looks like the idol Yalun wor.
Trying to cover up for him.
Me: Yup, my frenz is call Yalun too. Haha, very coincidence wor. Bt my frenz is call Chen Yalun. Not the acting the Yalun la.
Haha, dun kno how come i will come up wif tis fake name.
Bt the girls seems to accept my lie wor,
Anyway, the best part comes le.
Xiaojun then told Yalun tat she likes him alot.(Plz dun kill me for it, it is juz a dream)
In terms of shows, songs etc.
So i wanna tease them abit. Me: Mayb u want to do something to thank ur fan??
Yalun: Like wat??
Xiaojun: No nd la, juz help me sign the CD can le.
Me: Aiya, tat one very common. Anyone go Q up for the signing session all can get the signature. Mayb something special.
Haha, the devil within me took control.
Me: 献吻 ba.
Xiaojun, Pengfei and Yalun gav me the HUH look.
Bt Yalun still giv in to my suggestions. WAHAHAHA.
Yalun: Okay. =)
Then Yalun bring his face closer to Xiaojun's.
So it is something similar to those western style the greeting kiss.
Xiaojun kiss both side of Yalun de cheeks.
Both of them got those shy shy de look.
Waaaa, so sweet, how i wish it is me wor. Haha. Jap lv 2 is a failureYesterday is my 1st paper.
And i can conclude tat.
My jap lv 2 is a complete failure.
The previous night i cant slp.
Dun kno is due to ganjiong or worried abt cant finish studying.
Cant get any slp is making me irritated.
So yesterday morning tried to chiong to mug.
Ended up my brain cant seems to work.
i feel so slpy and cant focus.
So ended up i cant finish studying.
At the exam hall is worst.
My mind sort of went blank when i saw the paper.
i cant think!!!
So many qns i cant do.
Plus i keep dozing off to slp.
And my whole body is aching.
How to concentrate like tat??
So i m very slow.
i take very long to come up wif an ans.
Take very long to read the qns.
Sometimes hav to read many times.
B4 i kno wat the qns is asking for.
My brain is dead lor.
And the air con is too cold.
Cold til got stomachache.
Bt i can oli tahan.
Cant go toilet.
Coz i got no time to finish my paper le.
Where got time to go toilet.
Ended up i realli cant finish my paper.
The moment i handed in.
My mind is in a daze.
Bt aft a while later.
Sometimes shock me.
For the last part of the paper is compo.
The event is dated last yr.
And i totall nv use past tense for the entire compo.
Die, how can i did such a careless mistake!!!
This leads me to think tat.
For the whole paper.
The past tense issue din cross my mind.
i totally forgot abt it.
So for the compre and other qns.
Mayb hav to use past tense de.
All i din use.
i m super sad abt it.
For being so careless and cant concentrate.
Coz tis is my most confident paper.
Think i can oli get B- le ba, or even lower.
Coz so many qns cant do.
All nv check for past tense.
Cant finish the paper.
And i did badly for oral and listening.
Haiz, i hated myself so much lor.
Y cant i juz get some proper slp and focus better???
i m so sad tat i can help crying.
The most high hopes de paper ended up in an failure.
How can i hav the mood to do for other harders ones??? November 13 Random: 13/11/08i nd a place to vent out my frustration.
Later at 5pm going to hav my 1st exam of tis sem.
It is my jap paper.
Bt dun kno is i too ganjiong or wat.
i cant slp last night lor.
Shit, now super tired de.
Plus i still got a lot haven study yet.
Oh man, a few more hrs to chiong.
Pray tat my slpy brain can absorb as much as i can.
i m so dead. |
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