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August 31 Random: 31/08/09Today went to sch to meet up the seller for the marketing textbook.
Coz the seller is a guy, so i hav the sterotype tat most guys cant take care of things.
So i alr prepare myself tat i could receive a 破破烂烂 de bk.
Bt amazingly, the 2 textbooks are in very good condition wor.
Both are wrapped in plastic covering.
And the pages all dun hav 'ears' sticking out.
Plus the poststick tat he use to label the chapters.
All lined up neatly and his handwriting is very nice and neat.
Woo, salute to him man. Thanks for the good books. ^^
Came out from home aft lunch.
Chiong down to Raffles to get my DVD.
B4 going, i alr call to make sure tat the "1st story" DVD i want de still got stocks.
i even ask the boss to reserve for me, and i will reach there abt 4pm.
Bt when i reach there, no more le. O_O
T_T i told him juz now i call before to reserve.
Then he say: "Aiya, u are the one who call juz now? i tot is the other girl."
So he mix me up wif another girl.
He say tat girl bought 1 copy.
And she ask if the boss still got another one.
Coz she wants to help her friend to buy.
So the boss ask her did she call juz now, and she say yes.
So the boss tot she is me, and sold the 2 remaining copies to her. *cries*
Dun tell me i went down there for nothing again.
ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i m super stunned when the boss told me no more le.
Bt they are so nice, and told me still got their cd, juz arrive de.
Cries, i dun want their cd, i alr got le.
So i ask them still got other concert DVD ma.
Coz i heard tat there are 4 titles available in their shop.
Then they show me the other 3, all dun hav eng subs. T_T
The out of stock tat one, is the only one tat got eng subs. T_T
i stood there looking at the other 3 concert DVD, and i finally decided to buy 1.
Coz i realli dun want to go back empty-handed and full of sadness.
So i buy the Japan concert 2008 de wif Jap subs.
At least i can understand more Jap ma, i hope la.
And 2008 is last yr, i feel tat their style are the most shuai during tat time.
 Reach home and watched, wanna check out the quality.
Waaaa, i shd not hav play the DVD lor.
At 1st i told myself to watch a few songs, to cfm tat the quality of the graphics is gd.
Bt once started playing, i cant stop~~~whee
i keep watching wif a smile and keep exclaiming out my thoughts lor, like "arhhh, he so cute".
i aso keep waving my hands, like i m realli sitting there watching their live concert.
Jap concert is very different compare to the Korean concert tat i watched yesterday.
Firstly, the songs they sang are 13 Jap songs + 2 korean songs change to Jap lyrics + 2 korean songs.
Most of the Jap songs are my 1st time listening, and quite nice wor.
Hmm, i shd start listening to their Jap songs lor.
And i prefer the camera focus of this Japan Concert compare to the Korean ones.
Coz the camera realli focus close up on the boys.
So can see them and their expression realli upclose and clear. I love it.
And they focus more on my Kyujong, so i hav a even high time watching the concert.
Plus they speak 95% Jap plus abit of Korean.
And luckily is Jap, coz i can understand abt 50% of wat they are toking abt.
Not oli tat, the concert flow is well thought out too.
1st they warm up the mood wif a few light-hearted midpace songs.
Then they move to the power vocals part, singing ballad which showcase their strong vocals.
Esp Jungmin and Youngsaeng, loves them so much when they chiong de 高音, great work.
Then aft tat moves to the climax of the concert, a few super high and catchy de songs.
They even add in a ROCK song wor, rocking their mikestands, wearing glasses, jumping here and there.
Yeh!!! i loved rock songs, and get even more high when they sing the type of songs i like.
Ya, they sounds realli gd lor, shd hav sang rock songs in their future album.
Then they move the concept to cute songs.
Finally they start off the encore wif a touching song, and end it wif a power song Deja Vu.
Love the ending to be a power song, so tat ppl will hav the 意尤未尽 de feel.
No wonder it is such a good DVD, Jap ppl are realli pro, totally kno wat fans wants.
I realli made the right choice to buy it wor, and not very x, abt $22.
And tml the stocks for the "1st story" will come, and i hav to rush down to Raffles again.
Now i m thinking if i shd buy the other 2 concert de ma, bt seems like Korean concert.
Then like tat i wont kno wat they are toking abt, esp when inside got interview or backstage. T_T August 30 Random: 30/08/09i want to spend some quality time for myself.
So tat i can relieve my stress, relax and b happy.
Thus last night offline early.
Wrap up cosy in my bed and watch my boys de DVD.
Ended up i watched the 1st disk halfway.
i keep dozing off lor.
Shit, not tat my boys de DVD very boring hor.
It is juz tat i m very very very tired.
Bt at least during tat period of personal space.
i feel more at ease and relax, at least i din think abt any other things.
Except trying to enjoy the performance.
Thus the sleeping bug is finally here.
So i choose to go slp 1st, in case my slping bug gone le.
Wooo, i slp quite long wor, abt 9 hrs.
Waaaaa, it has been so long since i slept so much.
Concluded tat the DVD works well as a relaxing material wor.
And i chiong the 2 whole DVD tis morning.
Wooo, their last yr de concert is realli spectacular.
Seen from the DVD alr so nice le.
And the way it is filmed, totally bring out the high atmosphere.
i loved the way when my boys are getting ready for the nxt item.
The fans are watching pics slideshows wif my boys' song as background music.
And all the fans sing tog, loud and clear. Mass kbox lor.
Waaaaaa, i m so touched by it lor.
Cant imagine if i m watching it live, surprised, high and touched.
Bt too bad the camera focus is more on the other 4 during the singing and dancing.
My dear Kyujong got lesser individual focus. T_T
Thru out i keep staring at the tv and smiling to myself.
Apart from the great concert performance.
Their interview and making of mv, are realli funny and they r so cute.
When i saw Baby and Kyujong dancing too intimately wif a girl dancer during their solo.
i m quite agitated wor, stop touching them so much ya.
And i m very touched and moved when Youngsaeng sings his solo.
i saw how he uses all his energy to reach the high notes beautifully.
Until his neck de green nerves can be seen so clearly.
His vocals are realli wonderful and touched me yet again.
Smoking issue is totally out of my mind when i hear and saw him sing.
And i think Youngsaeng is the most popular one in korea ba.
Coz he got the loudest cheer among the fans.
Whenever he sings, can hear the fans chanting his name lor.
"Heo Youngsaeng!! Heo Youngsaeng!! Heo Youngsaeng!!"
Last night in forum got ppl mention abt buying their past concert DVD.
So today i chiong down to Raffles Xchange.
Hoping to be able to get my hands on the DVD.
Bt then hor, to my horror.
I reach there and every shop in Raffles Xchange are closed.
i m so confused and feel so weird.
Wat happened la?? Then i juz got an idea, mayb they oli open during wkdays.
So i went to check wif the MRT ppl.
And ya, Raffles Xchange oli open on wkdays.
Waaa, so shit, i made a wasted trip down. T_T August 29 Random: 29/08/09A few days ago, i saw on the forum tat got a new mag, fanXfan.
Tat featured my boys and sell at Kino.
i m reply on the forum tat i dun hav membership.
So dun hav discount if i buy tat mag.
Then at night, one of the members, an elder sis, pm me.
Asking me if i want a copy ma, since she is buying it.
Waaaa, super thanks alot.
She is so nice and friendly.
Not oli her, i aso receive a few pm for them.
Saying if i nd help wif the discount, they can buy for me since they got card.
Very happy and touched tat i manage to kno nice ppl.
Coz we oli met each other once, or oli online.
And they are willing to offer their help to me.
Then i ask tat elder sis to help me buy a copy of COOL轻音乐 de mag.
If she saw it at Kino.
Tat is the mag tat i had been looking and searching for more than 1 mth le.
i called Kino lots of times.
Bt always the ans i got is haven arrived.
Then the elder sis check for me and it is out of stocks.
Thus she oli manage to help me get the fanXfan mag.
Today i call Kino again, wanna see if they will restock ma.
Then i got a bad ans, out of stock, no restock and oli Taka de got import tis mag.
*crash* my heart sank so low... so low.
i can actually feel my heart become so heavy.
Super depressed abt it la.
More than 1 mth de waiting, searching, hoping, antipation etc.
All is gone juz like tat.
i m super mad at myself.
While tis 1 or 2 weeks i din call Kino.
Why tis 1 or 2 wks so many things cope up due to my mistakes.
Tat makes me totally no mood to go check up Kino.
How i wish tat time can turn back lor.
i super hate myself for messing things up.
i realised tat recently i m making more and more mistakes in my life.
i totally dun kno wat is wrong wif me.
i m not so careless and inattentive b4 de.
i tok to my god-sis and my guardian.
They say tat i m always stressing myself too much.
Always wanting everything to be perfect.
Which is impossible in reality.
i always push myself into a deadend.
Keep on like tat i will one day juz go crazy.
i drop my phone... will be mad at myself for being so careless.
i damage my poster... will angry why i din be alert and control my hands properly.
My sis say i m putting too much things in my mind le.
Tat is why i m physically and mentally tired, and too stress, and cant slp.
Thus always tends to make careless mistake due to tiredness, cant focus well.
i muz realli try to relax and stop planning and worrying abt every single thing.
Bt i cant, there is so many things for me to plan and worry abt.
i juz cant stop thinking abt them
Plus so many things i haven got time to do.
Due to tiredness, think i m getting slower and slower in my daily life.
Thus lots of things pile up and cant clear finish.
Aftnoon at my guardian's hse, i feel so tired and slpy.
Bt when i lie on my guardian's bed, i juz cant fall aslp.
Haiz, something is realli very wrong wif me.
Coz last night i slp at 2am, and i auto wake up at 8am.
Totally not enough slp and cant slp soundly.
Hope i can slp well tonight.
My sis pass tis to me today.
Is my god bro-in-law buy giv me de.
It is my Hyunjoong's ez-link card de sticker.
Wahaha, my bro-in-law super cute la.
Coz my sis buy de is short hair Hyunjoong de sticker.
Bryan buy de is F4 wif the main girl de sticker.
So my bro-in-law got another one for me.
And tis is Bryan choose for me de.
i ask him why he choose Hyunjoong in long hair for me.
Then he say he rem me saying tat i prefer Hyunjoong in long hair.
Tat is so sweet of them. ^^
Thanks thanks, i love it very much.
 Tis home-used slipper sis got for me on her thailand trip.
Yeh!!! Me loves home used slippers.
The one i m wearing now is aso she buy from thailand last yr.
Thanks thanks. Green is my boys de band colour. ^^
 Random: 28/08/09Think i busy wif my cca thing recently.
Ended up also bring cca into my dream lor.
Dreaming......
Our club is recruiting subcomms.
So today is our subcomms 1st meeting.
We will be having a 1 day orientation for everyone to get to kno each other.
i m doing the registration, so they hav to report their name to me when they arrived.
Me: Nxt. Ur name pls? (i m looking down on the list of name, din see who is the person)
Voice: Kyujong, Kim Kyujong.
Me: ???(did i hear wrongly??)
i quickly look up.
OMG, it is realli him wor.
My Kyujong joined our club!!!
Bt amazingly i dun seem very crazy abt him in tis dream.
i m juz simply happy to see him tat's all.
Bt he looks kinda scary, coz he is not smiling. T_T
When he dun smile, he got those cool cool look.
Me: Dun so stressed la, smiles ^^(i gav him a big big smile of mine)
Kyujong: ......(din smile)
He juz stand there and look at me.
Trying to cheer him up and make him feel more at ease.
Me: Hey, i m your fan wor. Loves ur songs. (excitedly)
Kyujong: ......ic.
Me: (no choice, nd to use ulitimate move, started singing his song) Wuss up! Wuss wuss wuss wuss up!
i even follow his dance movements and move my hands lor.
Totally comical me la.
Bt he totally no reaction at all seeing me making a fool out of myself. T_T
Arhhhh, why cant u juz b kind enough and giv me ur sweet innocent smile??
Okies, at tat pt of time, i m abit mad la, bt more of 无奈.
Wif a black face, i get up and walk away, stood and look out of the 落地窗.
He slowly walk towards me and stood behind.
Bt i ignored him.
He push a sheet of tissue into my hands, and told me not to cry.
CRY??? Although i m a crybaby, bt i m nt so lame to cry over tis lor.
Bt muahahaha, i know his weak pt liao.
Then i started to act like i m realli crying.
Me: You la, i try my best to cheer u up and u ignore me. Is tis how u shd treat ur fan cum clubmate?
Kyujong: Sry sry, i m a very quiet person(i kno), and dun kno how to express myself to strangers.
Me: Hey, we not strangers wor, i m ur fan cum clubmate, so we are frenz k?
Kyujong: (finally gav a small sweet smile) okay.
The event is going to start le, bt we want the subcomms to mingle wif someone they dun kno.
They are seated like pri/sec sch de format, in pairs.
So i ask everyone who sit on the left side of the table.
Exit the rm and line up in a straight line outside the corridor.
Then i get those who sit on the right side of the table to form another individual parallel line beside.
Me: Okies, now meet ur new partner. girlXgirl and girlXboy pairs hold hands. boyXboy pair can hook each other's shoulders. Let's be good frenz wif each other.
(omg, like pri sch kids lor, hav to hold hands, i muz hav miss my pri sch day. )
Then i noticed tat Kyujong is still standing alone in the classrm looking at us.
Me: Why dun u join the grp?
Kyujong: Coz the no. of subcomms is odd no, so there will be 1 person w/o a partner, and tat's me.
Me: Nvm, i be ur partner. =)) (more than happy to b his partner, life partner LOL)
Then i signal to the rest of the main comm tat i will join the activities wif Kyujong.
While lining up, we are standing in the last position.
Rem the "girlXgirl and girlXboy pairs can hold hands" de rules??
Shy shy wor, still thinking if i shd be more 大方 and hold out my hand 1st.
Juz as i m thinking, Kyujong shocked me when he suddenly grab hold of my hands.
i look at him, and he gav me a big big smile. *电到我了啦*
i wonder how big is his hand in reality, normal girls will find it big and 有安全感 ba.
For me most probaly shd b avg ba, since my hand very big. T_T
Yeh!!! Off we go for our actitivities tog...happily
And my mum hav to open my dr at tis moment and woke me up.
Yeh!!! Finally back home le, 11.30pm.
Finally finish up wif the cca interview thing.
Nxt thing up is our AGM, glad to see a few realli good candiates.
Tis past few days hav been returning home very late.
Thus online and do stuffs late, ended up slp late too.
Bt morning hav to wake up early.
Super tired, slpy and headache.
Dun kno when can i be less busy.
Lots of things haven done yet.
B it sch work or non-sch work.
Chiong arh, i realli nd to work faster.
But hor, think recently got my dreams to cheer me up.
If not i will be more lifeless lor. T_T August 28 Random: 27/08/09Although i slp at 3am last night, and wake up at 9am today.
Yeh!!! Realli happy tat my dreaming feel is back again.
Keep on coming man, i love nice dreams.
B4 i slp, focus all my attention onto my boys realli helps in dreaming lor.
Esp when last night i m trying to find nice pic of them.
To make my timetable.
Dreaming......
i m a fan of SS501, esp my beloved Kyujong.
Which is nothing surprising.
Since it is the fact in reality too.
Bt amazingly, i become Prince Hyunjoong de gf.
Waaaa, think lots of fangirls want to kill me for having such dreams.
One day, they are schedule for a show recording.
And Hyunjoong is so nice to bring me there to see him work.
B4 tat, i had nv meet the rest of the boys in person b4.
So when they are discussing abt their dance item on the stage wif the crew.
i m standing among those crews and fans, watching them.
Being Hyunjoong's gf, i shd hav look at him. Bt my eyes keep following Kyujong. Oppx.
During the break, Hyunjoong intro me to the rest of them for the very 1st time.
Waaa, i m so excited lor.
Standing right in front of all boys, esp my kyujong.
It is then time for them to do a final rehearsal.
Kyujong is doing his solo, while the rest went to backstage to get ready their part.
Then i juz stood there, watching him sings. ^^
Indulges in my fantasyland...cant believe tat i m able to see him sing at such a close distance.
Then Kyujong walk over to the fans' area.
And hook the arm of a fan and walk towards the centre of the stage wif her.
Aarhhhhhhh, why like tat agitate me!!!
And he sang right in her face, looking oli at her. Grrrrr.
Hmmm, i want to be tat lucky girl too.
So i quickly went over to the fans' area.
And try to squeeze a small area for me to sit down.
Bt the area is too flooded le, so the posture tat i sat down very weird and off.
Compare to the rest, i very outstanding due to my awkward posture.
Who cares, tat is even better.
He can notice me juz by looking lor.
And during the actual recording.
Kyujong realli came over and took me by the hand.
And sang solely to me oli.
Arhhhhh, the warm of his big hand, the looks of his eyes, his nice voice......
i dun want the dream to end lor. ^_^
After his performance, he came over to tok to me.
Then he say mayb i m bored by the recording and rehearsal.
So he wanna bring me to get some drinks while the rest are preparing for their parts.
There is no way i gonna reject tat, i happily went wif him.
Bt the problem is he bring me to drink soju.
It is korean de alcohol, like japan de sake.
Omg, i know they all likes to drink tat, bt i cant drink la.
Bt he say drink 1 small cup wont drunk le.
So i tried la, cant resist his request la.
It totally work out the opp, i m knocked out wif tat small cup.
i totally cant stand straight la.
And Kyujong hav to hold onto me while we walk back to the recording building.
If not i will juz fall to the floor.
Waaaa, resting my head on Kyujong's chest, is so comfortable.
花痴病又犯了!!!
Then we heard a loud shout, "Wat are u doing!!!".
Oh shit, Hyunjoong finished his performance and came to find us.
And saw me in Kyujong's arms.
He walk over and pull me out of Kyujong's hold and into his own arms.
The last thing i rem is Hyunjoong scolding Kyujong. T_T VAS Welcome Tea45mins anime screening starts the ball rolling.
Tis time round, we hav 2 different style of animation.
1 is japan anime, and the other is western animation cartoon.
Both ep is the 1st time i m watching.
Super funny and cute la.
Bt i prefer the japan anime de.
Since it is easier to understand and i prefer the graphic more.
Nxt is each of our 3subs clubs and individual portfolio gave a short presentation abt their main comm position.
Quite alot of ppl turn up for the event, be it asking abt being member, subcomm or main comm.
And Sunny is so nice of him to bring some sweets and snacks tat he bought fr Japan to share wif us.
Although Denise alr graduated, she aso came back to support the club.
Looking forward to see who are the new blood for our club.
Tat will carry on our mission to indulges in our passion for visual arts and make our club stronger.
PS: pics up in album.
August 25 Random: 24/08/09Amazingly wif the big problem last night.
I actually slp quite well wor.
Mayb coz i m realli realli very tired.
Coz this past few days totally cant slp.
And i had a good dream too.
Dreaming......
i manage to get hold on my Kyujong's phone no.
And i call him.
Voice: Annyeong Haseyo.
Me: Annyeong Haseyo. (tis voice!!! Is Prince Hyunjoong)
Bt change of heart de Rox want my Kyujong.
Me: Kyujong oppa.
Hyunjoong say something tat i dun understand, mayb telling me to hold on.
Then i heard him calling for Kyujong in the background.
Kyujong: Annyeong Haseyo.
Me: (excitedly) Kyujong oppa!!!
Kyujong: $^)*#)@&$()($@)&!#)$ (dun understand)
Me: Saranghae(i love you). Chouwa(i like)
LOL, i m trying to talk to him wif my super limited de korean lor.
Then i heard Kyujong and Hyunjoong discussing "stalker? fan?".
Anyway, it is still nice to hear their voices in my dream la.
Nxt time muz rem to tok to them in jap.
Coz they can understand de, and i m more pro in jap than korean.
Nvm, when i get more freetime, will try to learn korean on my own.
Hope i can succeed.
So tat if they got come to Singapore for concert.
Then at least i can aga aga understand wat they toking. And i can aso tok basic korean to them during fanmeeting if there is any.
Nice dream wake up le, then i started crying again.
Coz the big incident from last night still weights in my heart.
Chiong to sch to attend lect, then try to settle the problem.
Luckily everything is solved now.
Back home then can start to do my things.
Coz last night the whole problem makes me totally no mood to do my things lor.
Even my boys de forums i aso din go read.
See how sad, freak out i m, tat i even forsake my boys.
Went back sch at night for meeting.
Upcoming events:
Welcome Tea, 26Aug @ LT11
7 or 7.30pm.
For those who wants to join cca as subcomms, main comms.
Come down to join us for the event, and we will tell you more.
Anime screening, introduction of clubs and main comms positions, FOOD.
Interview 27 and 28 Aug @ TR4
7pm-10pm
For those who are intersted to join us as main comm.
Can come to the interview session, and we will choose a few good candiates.
To take part in the Annual General Meeting to be elected as the main comm.
Random: 23/08/09This moring had another weird dream.
Bt dun kno if it signifies anything.
Dreaming......
1 of my pri sch de best frenz turn up at my hse.
We are living in the same neighbourhood, opp blocks.
i m shocked tat how come he suddenly come find me.
He passed me an invitation, to his wedding.
(Not Luqman hor, although he is my pri/sec frenz and he is getting married nxt yr)
Wooo, glad for him to find someone who he wants to spend his life wif.
i invited him into my hse, bt he looks kinda sad.
Mayb too stressed abt the wedding preparation ba.
Me: Waaa, ur wife-to-be very pretty leh. (looking at their pics in the invitation) How you know her?
Him: She is pregnant.
Me: !!!!!! Oic...
Him: i decided to marry her coz she is pregnant. i cant run away from my responsibility.
Me: Oic...(i totally dun kno how to reply him la)
Him: Bt i realised tat she is not the one i love the most. i dun kno if i m doing the right thing by marrying her.
Me: ......
Him: She is driving me crazy. She wants a condo, and i buy for her. Now she wants a grand wedding, i m totally broke. i cant satisfied all her needs.
Me: Dun think so much for now. Hav a good rest k. U seems to hav countless of slpless night le. Darks circles so big.
Him: Thanks for being here wif me, i feel the most comfortable being wif u. At least i dun hav to face my worries.
Hey frenz, thanks for the compliment wor,
i m so kind to lend him my bed to slp lor.
Then i went out to the void deck, monitor his hse, want to see his gf.
His gf returned home, and notice me looking at her.
i quickly went back home, not sure if i shd inform her tat her bf is at my hse.
Bt hor, like tat like betray my frenz leh.
He is trying to escape from her, and i still tell her his whereabts like very bad wor.
Juz as i m having internal struggle, the girl appear and charge into my hse.
And started screaming at me, telling me to return him to her.
Her: Both of you alr break up, stop clinging onto him!!! (huh, so me n my frenz r couple b4)
Then the words she say gets worst and worst, sounds realli bad to the ear.
My flame juz erupted and started shouting at her too.
Me: He did so much juz for u, tat he is suffering now, and u still dun trust him.
Her: He muz hav want to break up wif me and return to ur side.
Me: Stupid!!! We are the past le. And he will come find me is coz i m a gd shelter frenz. If he got no problems, he wont come find me de. Nothing more than tat.
Omg, i m juz a shelter frenz.
In trouble then will rem me.
If not, normally wont even think of me lor.
Shit, think i kno tat in my sub consciousness.
Even my family treat me like tat lor.
Today is a drastic day for me.
Early in the morning had a quarrel wif my mum.
Then my dad joined in too.
i m so angry wif my dad tat i told him no nd to drive me home tonight.
i went to buy breakfast to my guardian hse.
Tears alr flooded my eyes le.
Bt i hav to control and hold back.
Cry at the market is the last thing i want to do.
Haiz, why do i always hav to cry while eating.
Evening time, my dad din come to fetch me.
So my god bro send me home.
At night, something major big happen to me.
I am so lost, so freak out, so helpess.
My heart skip a few beats.
i m sweating in cold, tears falling again.
Thanks Esther for telling me to think of the brighter side. There r advantages too.
Thanks Amy for giving me practical info and steps on wat to do.
Thanks Madmad for cheering me up wif ur cute msn display pic.
Thanks girls for being there for me, it realli meant alot to me. Random: 22/08/09 DancetitudeAfter fanclub gathering.
Rush back to NTU for the Dancetitude 09 concert.
It is a dance concert, put together by Modern Jazz club.
And other dance clubs for NUS, SMU etc are guess performers.
Waaa, super scare i cant make it in time lor.
Coz the fanclub gathering ended at 5.30pm. And yar, i m late, so cant make it for dinner.
Survive on a burger during the concert.
It is my 1st time tat i been to a dance concert.
Coz i super stiff de la, dun hav dancing de skill.
So usually not realli into dancing stuffs.
Bt tis time, it is totally an eye opener.
It is not those normal de dance concert.
Each and every of their dance got storyplot de.
So it makes the event interesting for those who dun understand dancing.
Xiaojun is one of the performers, we keep searching for her on stage.
Waaaa, we realli got good eye sight.
From wat i saw, the dance style got modern dance, cheerleading style, hiphop etc.
Quite a mixture of all types of dance catorgory.
And i m super high when 1 of the grp dance part of "Nobody" by Wonder Girls.
Wahahah, something related to my boys. LOL.
Towards the end of 2nd half, i started crying.
Coz 1 of the grp of guest performers are dancers wif hearing problems.
Some of them cant hear the music, bt they nd to dance in tune to the music.
It is realli tough, bt they strikes forward.
Nothing is able to stop the passion they all hav for dancing, not even their disability.
I admire wat their dance teacher say:
They are just normal ppl like us, juz tat they speak a different language--sign language.
Although their performance time is much shorter compare to the rest of the grp.
Bt they nd to put in so much more effort than the rest to learn a dance.
Bt it does not affect the quality of their show, it is totally nice and amazing.
i m totally touched by their passion towards something tat they want to achieve.
It is something tat i dun hav, something tat i m lacking.
Some ppl aims to be sports player, music player, dancer, artist etc.
Wat do i airm to be?
Wat passion i hav??
i dun hav an ans to the qns.
An empty shell is all i hav, leading my life aimlessly. Random: 22/08/09 Fanclub gatheringOur very 1st Official SgTripleS Fan Gathering.
Brave Rox is out to explore again, take MRT and change bus.
The gathering is at a condo function rm in the east.
Bt really very thankful to the main comms and some members.
As they gav realli clear directions.
So i manage to find the place easily.
YEH!!! Finally i got hold on the DVD and CD tat i order le.
Cant wait, cant wait to open it lor.
Lots of things to blog abt, scare cant finish.
So i will juz copy my exp for the event tat i wrote in the forum, edit a bit.
Plus i wont be posting pics of us.
As i nd to think about those who wants more privacy.
The very 1st fanclub i joined...the very 1st Fan Gathering i attended.
Though i signed up instantly when i saw the recruitment...excited~~YEA!!! Bt i also did feel abit insecure...since i dun kno anyone in the fanclub yet. Apart from the 4 main comms and a few familiar faces whom i saw during previous mechandise collection date. Plus i am quite shy despite having such a big build LOL. Bt it is definately a worthy and enjoyable trip for me. Being able to meet wonderful ppl wif the same love and passion for the boys. Able to make friends with great and friendly ppl. It is totally fun. =)) Lunch Time... i understand tat it is hard to organise the event, venue and cater food for everyone. So i din expect a full lunch set, tot there will only be snacks, drinks and cake. Bt our main comms totally put in so much effort to make the gathering a successful one. Making sure tat none of us will be hungry or thirsty during the event. Thanks alot for the hard work. Thanks Jennifer and May for sponsoring the delicious food too.  Our Nasi Lemak lunch, wif lots of tarts, Old Chang Kee stuffs etc.
Our beautiful cake wif our handsome boys...
To mark the 100 days of our fanclub SgTripleS on 08 Aug 09.  *drum roll*
Reveal of our club banner...which is filled wif our boys signature, msg for us.. Lots of high-ness going on~~~ The very banner tat they signed, they touched, they held!!!  Next is grp pic taking time, tog wif the banner as background and the cake in the front.
Then sing birthday song...blow candle...cutting cake ceremony..
i m aiming to take a "bite" at kyujong's part of the cake~~since he is my fav now. Bt i got Jungmin's leg instead. LOL. Not bad either, since i love all 5 of them, whose part is okay de. Sharing session on the Seoul Persona Concert.
Since i cant join the grp to be at the Seoul Concert to support our boys. No money lor, poor student is super sad de. Bt i m glad to be able to hear from their lively and clear explaining abt the concert. The sharing grp is so nice of them to put tog pics, vids on the event despite their busy scheduals. The banner issue is super cute, thanks to all of ur hard work, tat our boys know tat SgTripleS was there. Karen's eyes and smile shine so brightly when she is talking about Jungmin. =)) Arhhhh, how i wish i can see Kyujong in reality too. So tat my eyes and smile aso can shine brillantly too. ^^ Then the main comms surprise Emz wif a birthday cake for Emz.
We are told tat she spend her birthday under the hot sun for hrs w/o proper meals. In Seoul, waiting to collect the concert tix.
All of them are so sweet and nice to each other. Introduction time~~
1. Intro our name tat we want ppl to call us.
2. Use the starting letter of our name to form words to describe us.
3. Our ID on the forum.
i nd to think how to describe myself using "R".
And i say "Realli tall Roxanne", and my nick is cloud0_o.
Then i m surprise tat they goes "oh...it is you", "so you are cloud".
Wahhaa, think i too frequent the forum le, ended up most of them know my nick.
Aso probably my nick very easy to rem.
And i love how to they describe my nick, "so tall tat i can reach the clouds".
They are juz so sweet and adorable.
Finally is the whole cohort pic taking time.
The big big grp pic will be use for Youngsaeng upcoming birthday present.
Since the previous Prince Hyunjoong de i din join the club yet.
Plus Baby de present, i oli make a design, bt w/o my own pic.
i m happy to be able to be part of the grp pic for Youngsaeng's birthday present.
It is time to think of his wishes' design. Looking forward to take part in his birthday present project. ^^ Oh ya, i haven think of the designs for the fanletters project for each of them.
Waaa, 6 designs to do...nd to drain more brain juice.
Lastly, it is quiz game, testing us abt our knowledge on our boys. i m in Grp 6, and we won 2nd place.
1st place will get a A4 pic of our boys wif our fanclub logo. 2nd place we each got a $1 voucher.
Nxt time buy merchandise can hav discount.
 And the 1st and 2nd place can get to take small grp pic wif the banner.
Yippi, i m holding and touching the banner lor.
I m touching the very same thing tat my boys touched.
Ultimately, i realli hav fun during the events, everyone is so nice and friendly there.
Thanks our main comms for organising the gathering. Thanks the helpers who came so early to help get things running properly. Thanks Jennifer and May for the wonderful food. Thanks my grp members during the game-time. Thanks everyone for turning up for the event. Thanks BB's boss for the venue, food and drinks. Hope i dun miss out anyone. Sry if i cant rem everyone's names. Will try to rem more in our future gatherings. A big thanks you to everyone!!! A great job well done!!! SgTripleS rocks!!! i will be looking forward to the nxt gathering. ^^ Though tis time i m unable to help out due to my scheduals at night. Hope i m free to help during the nxt gathering. My 战利品 @ mini bazaar~~
L-shaped folder @$6
Front view
 Back view
 A large white poster @$8
 LOL, i bought tis at the very last min lor, b4 i left the place.
Coz i saw many ppl buying, so juz buy lor, since they looks good in it too.
Collected my DVD + Photobook @$43
 Ya, the photobook de front and back cover got those big line marks lor.
Think the factory packaging not careful lor. Grrrrr.
Bt luckily the pics inside not damaged.
Bt i m still heartache abt both the covers. T_T Ya!!! i haven watch the DVD lor, 2 disks somemore.
Shall watch it on a nice and wonderful day.
So i can enjoy my boys de company in good mood.
Cant wait to see their dorkyness and funny moments in the DVD lor.
And surprisingly, the DVD+photobook comes wif a poster too.
 YEA!!! My Kyujong looks super shuai and cute here.
In case u wonder which is him, top row, middle guy.
Wooo, Baby and Youngsaeng showing off their chest. (2 guys beside Kyujong)
Naughty naughty, realli dun like to button shirt hah.
CD collection @$15
 Actually i din tot of buying tis de.
Coz i ask the maincomms if there is any merchandise tat comes wif the cd.
They told me dun hav, since the album did not write anything abt the merchandise.
Bt i saw on a forum tat someone mention tat inside got 3 double-sided posters.
So i decided to try my luck and order.
See inside realli got the posters ma.
And amazingly, realli got wor.
Bt too bad, since the poster are folded, the condition realli not gd.
Worst than the folded poster tat i got from magazine lor.
Mayb their factories shd increase on their QC lor.
Arhhh, 3 doubled sided, so got 6 sides wor.
Realli nd to decide see let which side kiss the wall.
1st poster front: My Beloved kyujong
 Omg, my Beloved Kyujong is so MAN here.
No nd to think le, tis side muz not kiss the wall.
1st poster back:
 The other 2 posters kinda hard to decide which side shd kiss the wall.
The solo pics very shuai and man.
Bt i aso like their grp pic, coz they r wearing suit and ties.
2nd poster front: Baby Hyungjoon
 2nd poster back:
 3rd poster front: Youngsaeng
 3rd poster back:
 i bought lots of big black paper and wrapping plastic lor.
Cant wait to see when i got time to stick up all my new posters.
Bt now nd to decide which to kiss the wall for the double-sided ones.
Any opinions?? August 21 Random: 21/08/09Shit, i drop my phone today!!!
Think it is the 3rd time i drop him.
Hope i din lose count.
Carelessness is wat i hate in myself.
It is all coz i forget to close my pouch.
That is why when i hold the pouch.
The phone juz slip out, and did a bungee. T_T
Wat a tough day today!!!
Morning lect...5 hrs break...1 hr tut.
Ended up 1 hr tut become 2 hr.
Coz we gonna miss 1 wk of clz.
So prof today make-up lesson.
5 hrs at lib...slacking and trying to do some work.
i went to canteen for lunch.
It is drizzling and i m caught in the rain.
Aft lunch reach lib, read notes til i fall aslp.
Wake up, shocked, quickly look at the clock.
Waaa, heng arh, din overslp.
4.30pm tut i woke up at 4.10pm.
Bt aft i woke up, i dun feel very gd.
Headache and feeling very tired. Dazed.
Tut today is quite fun.
i wonder how come my prof suddenly become so funny.
She dun seems tat hyper last yr.
Anyway, same as always, introduction for 1st tut.
Prof say we each muz say a very special thing abt ourselves so tat she can rem us easily.
And shockingly, she starts from the back row, and i m the 4th person.
Yaaaa, guess wat special thing i say abt myself?
i m the tallest girl in clz lor.
Wat can i say apart from tat??
Then a yr 3 girl commented tat prof aso quite tall.
So my prof walk over to me and ask me to stand up.
The moment i stand up, she quickly 'run away'.
And say her one is 'fake' de, coz she is wearing heels. LOL.
Today nd to choose topics for presentation.
Cry~~ the one i want to do got 2 more grps vieing wif me.
i m super worry lor, coz the 2nd choice i want de aso taken up le.
Then we play finger guessing game
Super heng tat i won. YEH!!!
Thanks heaven, gods, everyone for the protection. ^^
Hope tat the topic i choose is easy to do.
If not i m attempting a suicide lor, since i m the one who choose it.
Reach home liao, i totally lie motionless on my bed.
i feel bit feverish and very tired.
Keep yawning and yawning...even when i m blogging now.
Yawned more than a hundred times today lor.
Dun kno i m going to get sick liao?
Or not enough slp?
Coz last night slp at 2am, today 8am wake up.
Haiz, i cant get sick and tired, tml is my long long day.
Mayb will try to slp early today, tml nd to wake up early.
Yeh!!! Tml is fanclub de 1st official gathering.
i m so looking forward to it bt aso scare.
Happy is i can finally go collect my DVD and CD liao.
Cant wait to watch the DVD lor.
i hav waited for 1 mth, and restrict myself from watching it online.
Coz i want to leave the best surprise happy feeling to when i m watching my own copy.
If i watched online de, then aft tat watched de one i bought.
No more surprise le, buy liao aso wasted, and i wont feel the worth.
i believe it is worthy to wait for good things.
Hope they dun disappoint me la.
Scare coz i quite shy, esp alone, dun kno anyone there.
Scare not able to make friends and sit in a corner drawing circles.
Our main comm told us to be friendly and enthu during the event.
Dun sit in 1 corner and seal ourselves up.
Muz try to mingle and make friends.
Okies, i will try to be more enthu, open, friendly, talkative etc.
Bring out the party-mood in me!!!
Guess wat, i m alr very enthu le.
Din kno tat the super not enthu Rox who hates camps become enthu lor.
The previous me, i dun think i will go to an event alone lor.
Esp when i dun kno anyone there, will get super nervous and anxious.
So i cant believe tat the moment i saw fanclub having a gathering.
i signed up instantly lor.
Din even go think abt my fears and helplessness.
i so enthu tat i even sign up as helper lor.
As i feel tat helper will get to make friends easily.
Coz we are working tog to make an event successful ma, teamwork.
Bt when i check wif them, too bad they nd helpers who can help out the whole day.
Which i cant, since at night i got concert.
Nvm, nxt time ba, i m sure we will hav more gathering in future.
i m aso enthu when we are discussing abt learning my boys de songs and dance tog lor.
Mayb i will go learn wif them when we hav a gathering on performance lor.
Bt still hav to see how is the effect of tml, see if i can enjoy myself there ma.
If i m happy there, and dun feel awkward.
i m willing to spend more time wif them.
Cant believe i m becoming so open to new things. LOL.
Love can realli make ppl change...though i hope tat i m changing for the better.
Hope i can find the place smoothly tml...coz it is kinda ulu east area to me. August 19 Random: 19/08/09Change my ez-link card liao.
Bought a yellow cardigan at bazaar.
Nd to cut down some weight.
If not wear cardigan will look like 包肉种.
Got time can go shopping.
Coz i dun think i got clothes to match tat yellow de cardigan.
Shopping time~~~
Today de marketing tut is quite fun.
The prof is kinda bubbly and funny.
Bt i dun realli like 1 thing abt her.
She say tat brands, looks etc are very impt.
i tot we shd not view ppl by brands, looks, $ etc.
Tat is very 肤浅 leh.
So wat if u work in a big hotel, drive luxury cars.
If your personality not gd, u r still a shit ma.
Dun look down on the poor or avg-income de ppl leh.
Bt i think tat is the harsh reality of the business work.
Tat is why secretary are always pretty right??
Apart fr tat, she aso keep entering my minefields lor.
She keep mentioning "smoking", "smokes", "smoker".
Arhhhhhhh, she keep poking my wounds.
i m trying my best to forget.
Bt everytime i heard those words.
Tat dreadful scene flash thru my mind again.
And i can feel my heart clenched tog . T_T
She dun mean anything la.
It is juz tat i m very sensitive to these words now.
Somemore i smell cigarette in the seminar rm lor.
i dun kno is my classmate smoke.
Or someone outside smokes.
So when she came in, the smell of smoke aso follow in.
Wat a "smoking" day!!! August 18 Random: 18/08/09After a night rest, and lots of thinking and sorting out my thoughts.
My pain fr the smoking issue reduces abit le.
At least, i dun feel like crying anymore.
Looking thru forums, fanclubs etc.
Regarding the news wif girls and smoking.
i m amazed tat most of the fans supported them.
i m someone who realli dun like ppl to smoke.
Coz i find tat it is harming themselves and aso the ppl ard them.
Tat is why i made it a must for my bro and father not to smoke.
My father quite good boy, listened to me since young.
i juz hope tat my bro will maintain his non-smoking lifestyle.
Thus Youngsaeng's smoking habit realli hit me hard.
Bt then i saw fans commented tat 90-95% of korean guys smoke and drink.
90-95%!!! Tat is alot lor.
Compare drinking and smoking...i ok wif drinking...bt dun drink everyday la.
And i kno all of my boys drink too, oli Baby Hyungjoon cant drink alot.
i just read a post on forum.
1 of them stated tat she is not shock abt Youngsaeng smoking.
Coz previously she read a fan blog.
Who saw Prince Hyunjoong and Youngsaeng taking a smoking break at their US concert.
So, not only Youngsaeng, but Prince Hyunjoong aso smoke??!!!
Now i m not surprised le, mayb the blow earlier is alr too big.
So adding 1 more to the smoking list...no diff right.
Come upon a fact tat, actually quite a lot of korean male artist aso smokes.
Like Super Junior, DBSK, Bigbang, 神话 etc.
No wonder Youngsaeng and Hyunjoong smokes.
Peers influence, since Yougnsaeng is very good frenz wif Super Junior, DBSK.
While Hyunjoong is very good frenz wif DBSK, Bigbang. Just a matter of who influence who.
Mayb i dun kno their culture...to them smoking is very normal??
i heard tat korean guys can start smoking during high school.
And it is possible tat more than half of the guys in a class smokes. *stunning*
Mayb i m too used to Singapore de environment, not tat many ppl smoke.
So when i suddenly saw my Youngsaeng smokes.
It is quite hard for me to accept it right away.
Bt thinking back, it is also irrational of me to deny all his good pts just coz of his smoking habit.
Bt i m scare and confused, which is the real him??
The one always shows his deep dimples, smiling so shyly on tv?
Or the one holding and puffing the smoke like a pro smoker?
It is the best if the shy sweet boy is aso a part of him.
Not just a princey image tat the company creates.
i muz trust him on tis, tat the image he shows to all fans, is also the real him.
As for him smoking, there is nothing i can do.
It is his choice and he is alr an adult le.
Shd be able to think for himself.
Haiz, i m trying to accept tat he smokes?
Bt it doesnt make me hate him...just disappointed and worry.
Who knos?? Mayb all my laogongs aso smokes!!! T_T
Youngsaeng once had throat operation...thus muz realli take care of his throat.
And smoking is doing harm to him...which will affects his singing, his health, his lungs.
No wonder i very often see him cough lor.
It is best to quit it la, best if company make it a must to quit smoking.
Or those "no smoking campaigns" can get my boys to be the 代言人.
So tat they no choice hav to stop smoking if they got smoke.
i just now went to google about my boys smoking.
So for now, oli saw Youngsaeng and hear tat Hyunjoong smokes.
Haiz, i can oli pray tat the 3 younger ones are not smokers.
Pls arh, Kyujong, Jungmin and Baby Hyungjoon, dun shock me la.
Dun get the bad habit from ur elder brothers.
Spend your $ on ur goals and hobbies.
Kyujong-ah, save all ur $ to buy hse. It is ur dream, for ur family, so work towards it.
Baby-ah, i kno u like branded stuffs, it is alright to buy those LV, Gucci, Ed Hardy stuffs tat u like.
Jungmin-ah, u loves fashion alot, so use ur $ to buy those clothes and accessory tat u loves.
So pls, dun go buy cigarette to smoke k?
Youngsaeng and Hyunjoong...although smoking is bad.
Bt it is still better than drugs(someone's comment)
i cant help bt argee to it.
NONONO, pls, dun touch drugs k?
It will ruins ur lives.
有前车之鉴, like 宫-野蛮王妃 tat 信太子, he is totally ruined.
So dun follow his footsteps.
Last night i m watching tis vid where Youngsaeng toks abt his throat operation.
Looking at his cute dimpled smile, his sweet expression, his gentle voice.
He realli dun look like a smoker...bt ya, the fact is the fact, i hav to accept it.
i cry again when i saw him playing the piano at 2.47 while thinking of the smoking issue.
He say he plays the piano specially for the viewers...for me.
So talented, the music and melody is so beautiful but sad.
While looking at him as he plays the songs.
A random tot just flooded my head.
His small sweet mouth is for showcasing his wonderful vocals.
Singing great songs for the fans...not for puffing a cigarette.
His pretty long fingers are for playing the piano, composing songs, and writing lyrics.
Not for holding onto the cigarette.
So ya, while thinking abt all these, the pain comes again and tears fall yet again.
不是有人常常说，爱一个人就要接受他的优点和缺点。
i dun kno if it is right or wrong.
For now, the oli thing i can do is slowly learn to accept tat.
And slowly put tat smoking issue behind me, trying to not think abt tat field.
i muz come out of my fantasy world, my boys are not 乖宝宝 as i tot.
They are just normal guys behind the idol image.
Now, i dun realli put much hope on the rest being 乖宝宝 le, except 1.
My dear Kyujong is known for being Mr. Nice Guy.
Hope tat he is really and truly a 乖宝宝.
If not, i will be devastated, since he is my fav as i love 乖宝宝. August 17 Random: 17/08/09i m very stressed over my FYP.
Due in 2 more days, and i m still not 20% done.
Last night i juz stare blankly at my word document.
Totally no idea on how to write, what to write.
So i decided to slp early, actually not tat early la, 1am+.
Tot tat mayb i m too tired so dun hav 灵感.
Thinking tat tis morning wake up got fresh mind can hav some ideas.
Mayb my boys kno tat i m too stressed up.
So they decided to visit me tog in my dreams.
Dreaming......
i managed to get hold of my boys de Singapore Concert tix.
i went alone to Q up to get into the hall.
No nd to go into details...just lots of squeezing trying to move to the front.
Amazingly, i manage to squeeze right to the very front of the stage.
And the concert started, wif them just right in front of me, singing and dancing.
Coz 5 of them and got a very big stage, so they hav to stay a distance from each other.
So tat different area de fans can at least be closer to either one of them.
And the one who is standing right in front of me is Youngsaeng.(cheer me up now, hurt me later)
During the concert, i kinda notice tat they somehow look abit different.
Looks more boyish and younger.
i din think too deep abt it, trying to enjoy myself.
Aft the concert, they came down the stage and going to leave.
i squeeze all the way towards them, and they r juz 1 metre away from me.
Waaaaa, we are super close lor.
Bt i had the ultimate shock tat woke me up.
All 5 of them walk pass me, bt they are shorter than me wor!!!
When i woke up, then i realised no wonder they look different...younger.
Coz the ones i saw in my dreams, are the younger version of my boys, abt 16 years old.
Morning wake up fresh coz of the motivation fr my boys.
So on com to print some stuffs for cca booth later, check mails, read forums etc.
i intend to start writing on my FYP aft i m done wif all these.
Bt from tis moment onwards, it marks the start of my BIG BAD MOOD.
i saw a HK news tat caught Prince Hyunjoong and Youngsaeng in HK yesterday.
And they hope onto a taxi wif 2 hot girls.
Before leaving, Youngsaeng took a last puff of smoke b4 throwing the cigarette on the floor.
At 1st i m shocked to see tis news, and there are pics of them.
HK is famous for making up stories, so mayb the pic is photoshop?
Or mayb the guys in the pics are just someone who look like them?
Bt when i saw the vid, my world just collapse.
The start of a new wk, the start of a new day...and wat awaits me is the harsh reality.
My whole heart totally frozen and sank...break into many pieces.
i m not mad abt them being wif girls.
They r full-blooded man, and they hav the right to meet girls and date them.
A few years down the road, they will get married and hav kids.
So i m realli very okay seeing girls wif them...good proper girls.
Bt i m so disappointed tat Youngsaeng actually smokes.
Among all 5 of them, i tot Younsaeng got the least probability to smoke.
Bt now the harsh reality struck me...YES!!! He smokes!!!
Why in the world did he do tat??!!!
He got the best voice and singing skills in the band...loves singing so much.
Bt why is he doing something that damages his voice...damages his passion??
The scene of him puffing the cigarette keep flashing in my head the whole day.
Everytime i tot of it, my tears started to flood my eyes.
Youngsaeng-ah, you realli deal a great blow on me. T_T
Trying to hide myself from the harsh hell.
i quickly off my com and confine myself in my rm.
And i amazingly started writing my FYP.
Bt the moment i saw Youngsaeng face, the whole scene appears again.
i quickly use post-stick pad to cover all his faces on my wall.
i totally dun want to see him now, i dun kno how i shd react to tis.
i want to be left alone, i dun want ppl to see my sad and disappointed face.
Bt i hav to forced myself to go sch, coz today i nd to mann booth.
Welcome Week
Visual Arts Society Booth
17-19th August 09
North Spine Lv 2, Near Sch of Computer Engineering
Promote club: Looking for members, subcomms, or maincomms.
I had to hide all my bad feeling up.
i cant show my 'black face' to everyone.
i cant cry, ppl will think i m crazy.
i try to maintain my usual self, putting on a strong front...bt i m hurting inside.
Bt luckily, when i m there, being able to tok to my frenz.
My mind will b occupied, so tat i wont go and think abt the smoking issue.
Aft booth duty, all alone again, and the pain appear again.
i dun kno how long it will take me to recover.
So now my main issue is to follow up on tat news.
Luckily i aso saw oli Youngsaeng smokes lor.
Cant imagine wat i will do if i saw all of them smoking!!!
Yar...i can understand tat, aft having 4 concerts.
It is gd to take some time off for holidays.
They nd the break to relax and hav fun.
Bt for now, i just feel disappointed tat Youngsaeng smokes.
Perhaps the rest also smoke??
Just tat i din kno.
Youngsaeng is my least fav, and i m alr so affected by it.
i cant imagine if the rest whom i love more are caught smoking.
Not you pls, Kyujong, now u are the center of my life.
If u do something to hurt me like Youngsaeng.
i think my world wont juz collaspe, bt disappear. Mayb i nd time to accept the fact...bt i dun kno how long will it takes.
i realli nd to stop myself from thinking abt it.
i muz focus on my FYP 1st.
Wonder how long my bad mood gonna last?? August 16 Random: 15/08/09Today drop by Suntec wif Amy.
To attend the Toy and Comic convention 09.
Comparing to last yr's event.
The crowd is lesser, which is gd in a sense for me.
Coz i dun like to be squeeze in crowds.
Probably coz apart fr the convention.
There are aso other events going on at Suntec.
Thus the crowd is spilt into different halls.
It is realli nice to see all those new toys and dolls designs.
There is aso a cosplay competition ongoing.
Bt too bad the theme for today is movies characters.
Thus most of them are from those Stars Wars, Star Trek movies.
Which i dun watch, so not realli interested in them.
i think tat the anime cosplay theme is on the nxt day.
After the event, we went to hav lunch abt 4pm+.
Wooo, amazingly i din realli feel the hunger wor.
Proberly too engross in looking at all those cute stuffs.
Tot of dropping by Kino to buy tat mag tat i hav been searching for a mth.
Bt call them to check up, the mag haven arrived yet.
Gonna call again nxt wk, hope tat mag tat is going to arrive is the one i m looking for lor.
If not i will be very sad and disapointed.
Back home, although very tired, bt still...forced myself to go online.
But hor, happily online until i forget tat today Channel U is airing F4 de interview show.
ARHHHHHHH, luckily my bro on tv and saw it, and ask me how come got tis show.
Then i realised, i forget abt the show totally and miss 10mins of it.
Waaaa, seldom so very grateful to my bro lor.
Bt hor, tat interview i alr seen it online b4 le, bt online vid not clear ma.
So spend the 1 and 1/2 hr looking at my Hyunjoong, ignoring the rest.
LOL, cant help it since i m nt a F4 fan.
i find tat the other parts of the show r kinda boring, w/o my Hyunjoong.
Wahaha, i can realli b very bias.
Since we had a late lunch, i tot tat i will eat my dinner at abt 10pm.
Ended up i din hav the feeling of wanting to eat dinner wor.
i tot of cooking instant noodle, bt ended up lazy and wanna lose weight.
So din go cook lor.
Ended up i oli eat a small portion of my mum tabao de beehoon.
Yeh!!! Tat is my dinner cum supper.
Wahaha, i hope tat everyday my stomach can be so good.
Dun feel hungry, and wont get sick.
Like tat then i can set my mind at ease and dun eat so much.
i really nd to cut down weight lor.
i m alr abt the same weight as my boys lor.
And my Youngsaeng is lighter than me by a bit.
Grrrrrrrrrr, tat is super depressing and sad for me. T_T
PS: Pic up in album. ^^ Random: 14/08/09YEH!!! By right i got a morning lect and a afternoon tut today de.
As we are intending to go kbox at clementic.
i can oli reach there abt 3.30.
Ended up tat tut cancel, super happy wor.
So aft lect, i went to meet up wif Madmad for lunch and k.
Wahhaa, i m realli in a very gd mood tat day.
Super high at kbox de!!!
And tis time i sing de songs, got some i very seldom sing at kbox de.
So quite an exp. =)) happy happy.
Bt tat tu-tu waiter caught sight of my bubble tea and conficated it.
Shit him la, eyes so sharp, i alr put behind the table's leg le.
Abt 4pm, Zean aft sch le came to join us.
YEH!!! Our high-ness continue until 7pm.
Too bad Ruqi and Amy got clz, so they cant join us for k.
Nvm, got other chances, since now kbox so near, Safra~~~.
Aft tat we went to Fish Mart for Sushi dinner.
My 1st time there, and we call alot of food wor...bills come up to $90.
Bt i find the food realli nice. =))
Waaaa, so many fresh sashimi makes me drools lor.
Then the rest snack on icecream. Too bad dun hav my strawberry de ice-cream, plus i very full le, so din snack.
 Amy, Rox, Ruiqi, Madmad, Zean.
YEH!!! Girls~~ We must come out more often.
It is realli fun and an enjoyable night.
Hope all of you enjoyed yourselves too. Muckz.
PS: Pics up in album. enjoy=)) August 12 Random: 12/08/09Anyone of you wif a facebook account.
Please go and double check your personal info settings.
i just had a shock tat ppl who are not in my friends list can access my phone no.
How i realised it??
From a stranger sms, which is scary towards the end.
A few days ago, i received a sms from a stranger, a guy.
At 1st, the sms sounds normal.
He say tat he is going thru his contact list and saw my name.
Bt he cant rem who i m or how we met.
So sms asking me if we kno each other?
Bt i dun hav his no. in my contact list.
Then i felt abit cautious liao.
Coz recent friends 不可能 dun rem me ma.
Bt if pri sch or sec sch friend.
Although got probability coz we very long nv met.
But i m quite active in sch, so there is no reason my friends dun rem ma.
But just in case could be some "hi-bye" friends who dun rem me.
So i ask for his name.
His name i got hear b4, then i told him, mayb we are some schmates.
Those kind of schmates tat hear names b4 bt nv tok de.
Then he started naming his sec, JC, NTU, and tell me where he stay.
OMG, where got ppl tell a stranger straight away where he stay de??
i 开始起疑心, thinking tat he mayb trying to 套我的话.
Since we are from different sec and JC, i can cfm tat i din kno him.
If i cant rem my uni friends, then i can bang my head liao.
And i 80% sure he is not my cca de ppl.
Then he say we mayb could hav met each other online.
Yar, mayb, i dun rem la, just 敷衍 him.
Then he gav me his hotmail add, say if i want to be friends.
Can add him msn or facebook.
i dun like to befriend strangers, so i just delete all the msg.
Until today, i got his sms again.
He say tat he realised how he gt my no le.
He got it from facebook.
Then i got a MAJOR shock!!!
How come someone i dun kno, can get my phone no. on facebook??
i dun kno if i got add him as friends by mistake ma.
He say he saw my phone no. on facebook.
Plus we both study in NTU, and stay in the same area.
And we got a common friend.
So he save my no. down.
Okies, from tis moment onwards, i m pissed liao.
U dun kno me, and u save my no. in ur phone!!!
And i kinda 堤防 him liao, coz tis mtd of saving strangers de no. sounds like a 坏人.
Then the nxt msg totally shock me!!!
He say my profile said tat i m looking for date/relationship wif men.
Asking me is it still valid?
OMG!!! OMG!!! How come i din kno i got write tat!!!
i quickly log in to facebook, which i very long nv go in le, unless got friends msg me.
i search thru my friends list, and realised tat he is not inside.
YA!!! He not in my friend list, how come can see my phone no???
i look thru tat "common friend" de friend list and i saw his name pop up.
So now i cfm his network area liao.
i quickly go check my profile!!!
Where is the hell the "looking for date/relationship wif MEN"!!!!
I found it finally, and it is not as 淫荡 as he wrote lor.
It is under the basic info colume de "Looking For" catogory.
Got 5 choices to tick: Friendship, Dating, A relationship, Whatever i can get, Networking.
But hey!!! Where is the word "MEN"??
Bloody hell, makes me sounds so cheap!!!
i cant rem is by default tick all, or i ownself tick all de.
So many yrs ago le, din realli care abt it lor.
Now i m so pissed tat i untick everything!!!
Then he sms me telling me his age, single and available, asking me if i will be interested in him?
ARHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i alr try nt to sounds very rude.
Told him tat there is a misunderstanding, and I M NOT INTERESTED!!!
i check thru my security setting.
Realised tat i m under the NTU group.
Previously i put all my personal info setting oli to my "network and friends".
i tot my "network and friends", means like my family, friends, cca mates, my fac etc.
Bt then hor, NTU grp is aso consider as "network" wor.
So shockingly realised tat all NTU student in tat grp can see my phone no, address etc.
i quickly go change all the settings to strictly my friends.
Think i nd to go check thru my friends list, just in case inside got someone i dun kno.
OMG. A major shock to me.
Ppl is received 骚扰电话, me is received 骚扰sms.
坏人!!! 明目张胆问一个陌生女生对他有兴趣吗?!! 疯子!!! 下流!!!
So everyone, please go and double check your facebook, friendster, twitter etc de info setting. Random: 11/08/09Haiz, 1st day of sch.
Although i got no clz today.
Bt still nd to go back sch at night for cca meeting.
Just reach home abt 10pm, super tired and hungry.
Today's meeting scare me lor.
Waaaa, so many events coming up straight away.
3 days Welcome Week booth for freshies.
Welcome Tea Party to promote club.
2 days interview to select candidates for new main comm.
Annual General Meeting to elect main comm.
My busy-ness will continue until Sep ba.
Not to forget got sch work, FYP, fanclub and forums projects.
i realli must plan my time well and stop slacking.
If not where got time to finish all of these.
As for my cca updates, i will be stepping down from vice-chair.
Coz i scare i dun hav time to do main comm duties.
As 4th yr le, got the 凶 de FYP and other committments.
So any of u interested to b a main comm, can let me kno fast.
Haha, can earn cca pts if u nd it for hall or resume.
Bt i will be continuing as sub comm to help the new comm.
And also keep in touch wif my anime hobby la.
LOL, i spend my whole 4 yrs of uni in the same club lor.
Bt i m glad to kno ppl with the same interest.
Okies, nd to stop blogging here.
i nd to fast fast go do my cca de stuffs le.
Then go check up on my boys.
If not tonight no nd slp liao. Shit, i haven go cfm my timetable and check/decide for the NIE application thing.
Too blur abt it, haven got time to sort things out.
Dateline is very near liao, no time.
Somemore my FYP intro is due nxt wed.
And Welcome Week booth is b4 my FYP dateline.
Aiyo, how come so many things i nd to do all pack tog arh!!!
4th year is realli a super busy yr.
Rox!!! Please stop slacking!!! i beg u!!! August 11 Random: 10/08/09Last day of my hols.
Haiz, 3 mths!!! A full 3 mths is gone just like tat!!!
How i wish time will stop here.
i want my hols to go on for eternity.
But it is an impossible dream.
And i just manage to type finish 5 fanletters for each of my boys.
Today is the dateline for translation lor, super ganjiong cant finish in time.
Recalling back on wat i did this hols.
i personally think tat it is the most enriching hols i ever had in uni.
Previously, i will always go my guardian or my sis hse to slack away.
Tis hols i become more outgoing, having more outings.
Going out with friends is wat i enjoy doing.
Even though it can be just a normal meal.
It is realli good to see tat all my friends are doing fine.
And all of us catching up, laughing and chitchatting.
Although tis hols i din chiong a lot of drama and anime.
Which is super 可惜.
Bt i found something tat is more impt to me than my drama and anime now.
Wahaha, it is obvious wat it is-- my boys lor.
Tat time i m talking to Xihui.
i told her tat previously, i tot nothing can take me away from anime, even my laogongs.
Coz from young, anime is my world.
Bt now, i cant believe tat more than half of the hols.
i totally din think abt anime lor.
All those previous and current season de anime, i totally din watch.
My whole mind and heart r filled wif my boys, to be exact, is flooded.
i totally dun hav remaining energy or time to love other things.
This kind of idols-love could be just temporary.
One moment u will love them, aft sometime, the love will decrease.
And u will realised tat u spend so much $ for nothing.
Bt all these are just faces of life, tat everyone goes thru.
For now, i m still in hot-over-heels mode.
i just hope tat my boys will be the special ones.
So tat time wont take away my love for them.
Coz last time i like quite a few bands, like 5566, F4, 飞轮海 etc. Bt among those 4-5 members, i oli love one of them.
Thus i am not the band de fan, bt only tat specific member de fan.
But tis time it is totally different with my boys.
i cant believe tat i actually love all 5 of them wor.
i tot it is impossible to love everyone in a band, due to taste.
Bt then it happen to me now.
i still can rem tat when i 1st started off knowing my boys thru Prince Hyunjoong.
i totally cant stand Jungmin, i feel tat he got the 欠扁 face.
i see le feel like hitting him.
Then i notice Kyujong and Baby Hyungjoon coz they look abit like Yalun and Zun.
But now, it is totally different, i love all of them for who they are.
To me, each of them are special individuals, and 5 of them tog is a perfect combi for me.
Even though Youngsaeng is my least fav, due to the fact tat he dun hav min 180 de height.
Bt i doesnt mean tat i dun love him.
i do, thus everytime i see his sweet dimpled smile in pics or vids.
i will aso feel very happy and love him so much. .
The only thing i want for now is to be able to see them live, see their performance.
Bt i think there will also be a problem la.
All 5 perform at the same time, who shd i look at??
i only got 2 eyes wor.
Watch vid i can watch 5 times, each time focus on 1.
Bt 1 concert only can watch once ma.
i realli hope tat in future when my high-ness for them die down and matured more.
i m able to continue support and love them like how i do to my laogongs.
Hope tat they will stay in my heart forever, like my laogongs.
And my boys also let me undergo lots of 第一次, wat an experience during the hols.
第一次 accept korean related stuffs. (as i m 哈日族, b4 tat din get to kno abt korea)
第一次 eat korean food.
第一次 fall in love with korean artist.(b4 tat oli like a few due to dramas)
第一次 fall in love with everyone in a whole band.
第一次 got the urge to learn korean.(b4 tat, i wont want to learn)
第一次 write and memorise korean words.(all of their names)
第一次 learn korean songs.
第一次 aga aga can rem their dance steps. (b4 i dun realli focus abt artist de dance)
第一次 join a fanclub.
第一次 join forums(dun count cca de) and participate actively.
第一次 make a card for artist de birthday.
第一次 write fanletters for artist.
第一次 buy korean singers de cd and dvd.
第一次 online shopping. (their cds)
So many 第一次 tat they gave me.
Thus knowing them somehow helps me to open my horizons.
And let me experience things which i totally wont experience b4.
Therefore i m grateful for them, for appearing in my life.
They gav me fun, laugher, joy, love, happiness and a lot more in these 3 mths.
A fullfilling hols to look back upon. August 09 Sebastian Nendoroid PhotoshootYeh!!! Finally got time to open my very 1st Nendoroid to check.
My $51 Nendoroid!!! T_T
Proudly presents, Sebastian from Kuroshitsuji.
 Inside consist of interchangable parts: 3 facial expressions, a few arms parts and a cute black cat.
Then i do a photoshoot series for him.
Wahaha, i even got those white background and white flooring lor.
Exact same scene as wat ppl do in photoshoot.
 Tis is my fav pic among all tat i took.
The rest of the pics are up in album.
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